Saturday, March 31, 2007
Lemme see. . alot of things happened for the week. . however i was toooo lazy to blog. .PRCP/Attachment
- sucky but suprisingly time passes by quite fast. .
-seriously, my knowledge is atrocious !
FuGLY
Fats spilling out of the rim.
Skinny Jeans simply dun fit.
Skull n Bones
That pull n bear top, sweater, knit sweater wateva u call it is constantly on my mind.
See, i hate it when this happens.
When i come across something i like.
Then i dun buy.
And then it haunts me.
Now i regret not buying then coz now im freaking broke.
I duno why but im so into skull n bones now.
Hmm..
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:36 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
We've been together for 4 months plus.
We love each other. (i suppose, heh, or i prefer to think so)
I tried to keep the relationship a secret.
I wasn't embarassed of you honey,
itz juz that i was embarassed of myself.
People would think i don't deserve to be wit u.
I would prefer to keep the relationship in low profile.
We've been thru everything now.
Name it, be it heat, water, dirt or dust.
Juz no mud yet.
And hey, look at us now.
Still going on strong.
I love you.
Always will.
* The above is a letter from a girl to a machine [CBR 150]
Anyway, with regards to the above, khehe,
something happened when we're together today.
I was riding along ECP today and there was this crazy driver.
He (i assume) was weaving in and out of the first and second lane.
It was peak hours and so, the heavy traffic and all.
When i saw him weaving, i went like "WHOA.."
and i started smiling to myself.
HAhaha, why u ask?
Coz i felt the thrill he felt !! haha..
well not quite but i was trying to..
So there i was smiling with a gap btwn ma lips. . (u can imagine me rite?)
Yes dumb i muz say.
Then when i was on a minor road,
there was this pick up with foreign workers(banglas) at the back.
It was raining and they were huddled at the back, hanging on to their dear umbrellas.
khehe.
and then there were puddles along the stretch of road.
And i mean lotsa puddles man.
I was behind em.
When the water splashed onto them,
they shrieked and screamed like women !!!
I cant help but laugh loudly !!
DAmmit, it was hilarious sia !!!
hahaha..
So for once, bangla workers brighten up my day. .
hahaha..
Posted by Sui Teng at 10:31 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Yesterday i was suppose to meet my frens to study in school.I was all ready.
Set to go off with this tshirt that i got the day b4.
My excitement was killed by that a-hole.
Conversation totally dampened my spirits.
In d end, i didnt step outta d house.
I was suppose to STUDY, i couldn't.
I was suppose to FREAK OUT, i couldn't
I ended up sleeping with my jeans and that tshirt.
That very same attire meant to go out.
I slept till night.
My mom scolded me for sleeping and not studying.
She thinks there's smth wrong with me.
I think so too.
I didnt study the whole day.
When i woke up, i didnt have the mood to study.
So i decided to dial Ram.
I went over at midnight.
Washed my bike for the 1st time !!!
I mean real washing . . not juz wipe here and there with wet towel. .
Chilled at their house for a while before heading home at 5am.
Wasnt sleepy when i reached home.
But i forced myself to sleep.
God dammit I'm such an idiot.
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:37 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Mine: You don't mean anything at all to me.His: An u think u do? Never had & never will. I was juz bein nice but u think i have alterior motives.
Do you think it match?
You make me FEEL like SHIT.
You make me CRY.
You make me REGRET everything.
I hate this stoopid MIND GAME of yours.
Maybe you shud not come back.
Why dun u juz leave me alone.
Juz don't ever come back .
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:43 PM
Itz 2.30am now. I'm not sleepy yet.
Though i'm aching everywhere.
Back, legs, arms, juz name it.
I am juz reflecting a lil.
Maybe i'm born to be a jinx or of some sort.
On the topic of Friendship.
I realise that i havent been able to maintain a consistent relationship with friends.
::Pri Sch::
-no contact
-once a yr gathering during hari raya [if i can/want (to) make it]
::Sec Sch::
-tried to keep up with a few, still trying
-lost one coz it feels weird to see her with my ex-boyfriend [not kicking a fuss here]
-now, closer to those least expected [wonderful]
::College::
-coincidental bumps on the streets once in a while
-failed once again
::Poly::
-started off great
-somehow it came to a sharp deceleration at one point of time
(i wonder if itz bcoz of me. . . something i did? i really don't know)
-then it hits a plateau
-and then another sharp deceleration and still decelerating?
(oh, wait, i'm kinda confused here, or izzit a plateau stage? )
-despite the above situation, a healthy acceleration is occuring somewhere [i'm glad]
Hmm, seems like things does not last long huh.
I mean at least when i'm involved in it.
I guess i'm sorta like d person who screws up everything.
Without realising.
Sad ey?
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:30 AM
this is what Miss "i'm-into-this-is-why-im-hot-song" had. . . haha. . .
this is what Miss "i-suddenly-burst-out-laughing-alone-at-the-escalator" had. . .
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:39 AM
Monday, March 12, 2007
Today was a jam packed day for me.I had things going on from 9.30am till 7 plus in the evening. .
After training i headed home.
Washed up.
Went out met a fren.
My fren treated me to d moviesss !!
well juz a movie actually. haha. . .
So we caught Music and Lyrics. . .
Touching. . .
Haiz, makes u wanna fall in love all over again. . .
wakakaka. . .
think so. . .
and, i finally got wat i wanted !!!
the cute popcorn container !!!
Itz yellow !!!
and
It has cute cows on it !!
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:59 AM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Yesterday was the last day in school.I've been waiting for that moment.
Felt kinda relieved.
Can't stand it anymore anyway.
Class NR0415
Group 2 ( same group for 3 years, same thing happening. . khehe. . )
Dying Misfits (without Lin)
My other precious
So now we're left with exams, and the 6 wks of PRCP.
And tats about it i guess.
Anywayz, i had my last presentation yesterday as well.
Thurs night, I was rushing to gather the information and all but then someone had to interrupt my work.
He came online.
He msned me.
And of all things, we talked abt d past.
And then i got "worked up".
He indirectly raked up the past.
It became a mess once again.
I was so distracted.
I got confused.
Simply didnt get what he wanted.
In the end, i was left in a sad mood.
Memories made me smile, however, d same memories left me rolling violently downhill.
I went to school, ready to go home.
After school was over, i juz wanted to let my hair down and release all the bad energy that formed in me. (coz of him)
In d end, i didnt go for training.
I was in no mood.
I knew i would give a shitty performance if i did go.
I ended up watching 'the pursuit of happyness'.
Yes, the spelling of happiness in dat movie was happyness. hehe.
Cool i like this picture
Shafa and me
Got obsessed with my footwear . . hahah. .
I ended up with cramps here and there. .Sheer exhaustion. khehe. .
TOday i went to work.
Did 3rd shift wit Rose. Lepak. haha.
Her laughter brightens my day seh.
Anyway, there was Agnes, Salihin and Amanda today.
Salihin cracked me up too man.
That funny fella. Khehe.
I cant wait for staff night.
23rd March, 6.30pm.
Plz remind me to go.
I'd love to go and support our GSOs..
wooooooooooo hoooooooooo
Me and Rose
Minglun, Me and Rose
Me, Rose and Kumar
I was chatting wit James juz now.
He told me itz not worth it.
James motivated me to have a firm decision.
My decision:
- i shall not give a damn about u since ur freaking married, plus, ur a big time jerk!
- i dont give a hoot about that stoopid strike 3 shit, i'll go out when i want and with whoever i want to.
- I play by rules, but not yours
- I shall make myself contented, not suffer to make u contented
Today seminar room looked different to me.
Memories held there made me smile but it did make me shudder as well.
Today the tunnel looked different to me.
It looked special.
It reminded me of how u made the first move.
I was down and didnt notice u were looking at me.
And then u caught my attention
And u gave me hand cues,
asking when i looked sad.
Separated by acrylic,
you were floating weightlessly in the water
whereas i was pulled by gravity on firm ground
I guess small gestures does move me.
Much.
Posted by Sui Teng at 12:57 AM
Friday, March 9, 2007
This song hits the spot.Bull's eye.
In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan
Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me
I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show
You tonight
You tonight
From my hands I could give you
Something that I made
From my mouth I could sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I could show you a place God knows
You should know the space is holy
Do you really want to go?
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:05 AM
Monday, March 5, 2007
Sunday i was suppose to go to training at 4pm. I took a short nap at 3pm. However, i over-napped. What's new huh. Then, never before, coach called me. I hesitated to pick up her call. Eventually, i didnt. I was somehow too hurt and disappointed. She left me a voice msg asking whether i'm coming for training and that the girls started their runs already. After listening to the msg, i wanted to instantly change and head down to the court. However, things at home prevented me from doing so. Why why why?Posted by Sui Teng at 9:11 AM
Saturday, March 3, 2007
Today i didnt go to school again.
I don't know why.
I dun feel sleepy but i juz didnt want to wake up. It was so not me. I think.
I woke up at 4.30pm.
Instead of feeling refreshed, I felt like shit.
My friend msged me at 1 plus saying that she's at the brink of insanity. Was suppose to be there to help her but i was nowhere on Earth. I felt so bad about it. She had no one to turn to. And the idiot that she looked up for, was not there for her.
Then i went for training at 8pm.After the rain. That was another activity that made me feel like shit. I missed lotsa trainings. A LOT i mean. So i feel like out of the team. I feel different with them. Like itz pure silence for me. its so ironic, coz i did say im happy to be back in the team the last time round but now. . . itz different. .
Two things that made me angry and sad.
1. I cant run as fast as i used to because:
--> Both my knees are different now. The right feels like something teared beneath and the left juz doesnt feel right too. I felt hurt when u told me to run after the ball (when i cant speed like before) and told me that itz a waste when i missed it.
2. I have a phuc*ing phobia of puddles
--> you wont find me running fast after a ball when there are puddles. I dun wanna risk another injury. I don't run fast or i don't function well near puddles. Get it? Of course u don't. Coz u dont read me.
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:25 AM
Testing My beautiful life is in a messTesting My beautiful life is in a mess
Testing My beautiful life is in a mess
Testing My beautiful life is in a mess
Testing My beautiful life is in a mess
Posted by Sui Teng at 1:16 AM
Friday, March 2, 2007
Tiger, orangutan babies playmates at zooI was captured by this article on the internet..
For those who are interested to read, enjoy !
For those who are not interested to read, enjoy the pics!
CISARUA, Indonesia - Call them the odd couples. A pair of month-old Sumatran tiger twins have become inseparable playmates with a set of young orangutans, an unthinkable match in their natural jungle habitat in Indonesia's tropical rainforests.
The friendship between 5-month-old female baby primates Nia and Irma, and cubs Dema and Manis, has blossomed at the Taman Safari zoo where they share a room in the nursery.
After being abandoned by their mothers shortly after birth, the four play fight, nipping and teasing each other, and cuddling up for a shared nap when they are worn out.
"This is unusual and would never happen in the wild," said zoo keeper Sri Suwarni, bottle-feeding a baby chimp on Wednesday. "Like human babies, they only want to play."
The four have lived side-by-side for a month without a single act of hostility, she said.
Indonesian tigers and orangutans are both endangered species, threatened by rapidly shrinking habitats.
Conservationists estimate there are fewer than 700 Sumatran tigers still alive, while fewer than 60,000 orangutans remain in the wild. Around 90 percent of the jungle has been destroyed by illegal logging, poaching and cut-and-burn farming practices on Borneo and Sumatra islands.
The exceptional friendship will likely be short-lived, said veterinarian Retno Sudarwati, because as the animals grow up their natural survival instincts will kick in.
"When the time comes, they will have to be separated. It's sad, but we cant' change their natural behavior," she said. "Tigers start eating meat when they are three months old."
