Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Posted by Sui Teng at 7:16 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:25 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
Breakfast-2 slices of pizza
-half red bean pancake
-1 cup coffee
Lunch
-Garlic bread
Dinner
-Sup Tulang!
-Mee Goreng
-Bistik
Posted by Sui Teng at 8:02 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Today is the day i'm gonna say for real that I AM FAT!!Before you go " Hanaaaa ur not fattt at all !! " , read up alright.
The signs are showing.
Today we had to go to sgh for talks.It was part of the orientation programme.
For break, we had to walk quite a distance to the foodstalls.
While walking, frens told me that my butt was prominent, and that my pants were kinda short.
Those comments really hit me hard man.
ok, thing is, our uniform is white, so all can be seen. (if u noe wat i mean)
My pants were kinda short coz i had to pull it up higher than my waist in order to hook up and zip up.
See, thats an indicator that i gained weight.
Months ago when i tried those pants, it fitted me well.
That is d 1ST REASON why i said i'm getting fatter.
2ND REASON is this morning, when i was zipping up my pants,i zipped up my skin as well!
yes it hurts.
I zipped up my skin coz fats were bulging out and i didnt realise that i might accidentally zip em up.
That was an absolute horrific realisation!
Anywayz, after sgh, i headed home and washed up.
Had honeystars.
Then,i went to the computer and i sat on the swivel chair.
Guess wat?
My pants tore right smack in the middle.To be precise, it was the buttock area.
I cant believe it !!
My pants tore as i was about to sit !!!!
ARRRGGHH this is tragic !!!
That is the 3RD REASON !
Had honeystars.
Then,i went to the computer and i sat on the swivel chair.
Guess wat?
My pants tore right smack in the middle.To be precise, it was the buttock area.
I cant believe it !!
My pants tore as i was about to sit !!!!
ARRRGGHH this is tragic !!!
That is the 3RD REASON !
I freaked out and at that moment i rushed for the weighing machine.
Guess wat?
To my digust and horror,
i'm 63.1kg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DAMMIT !!!
I was 58 before !
That is reason no. 4 !!!!
Then as i sit down to ponder on things,
i remembered that earlier on at sgh lecture room,
i took a pic of me and min.
And my face was rounded.
He agreed.
He said how come i so tembam.
OMG !!!
That is REASON NO 5 why i can say that i'm DEFINITELY getting fatter !
ok, thats it.
That is the final straw.
I need to do something.
Please support me people.
Don't keep saying that i'm not fat.
Don't call me an anorexic, coz clearly i'm not.
Don't call me an anorexic, coz clearly i'm not.
Weight: 63.1kg
Fat: 26.9%
BMI:22.4
~ Don't try, Do it~
1. 1 Sardine puff
2. 2 Veggie pau
3. Chicken Rice
4. Honeystars
Posted by Sui Teng at 5:12 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I cant help but feel sad everytime we say goodbye.SO NEAR YET SO FAR . . .
Of course i enjoyed and still am enjoying those moments together.
I AM HAPPY WIT U . . .
Yesterday i finally get to meet the darlings!
Sorry i was late girls, seriously didnt noe tat it was straight from work to town. khehe.
Anyway, thanks for the gift ! =)
Little Miss Late has always been trying to be punctual.Trying, it shall not be, Doing, it will be.
Haha, wth is wrong wit ma words.
Anyway,
I shall not try to be punctual, i will be punctual.
Posted by Sui Teng at 2:01 AM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Yesterday was 17/07/07.
Nice sequence of numbers huh.
Itz juz one of those other days.
However, i was reminded of d day coz msges came in.
Wan was the first buddy to wish me.
He also got me smth which i was trying to get all these while. Colour lain takpe, asalkan dapat the print! haha.
Thanks Wan!
Oh, and thanks for letting me ride ur bike! wakaka!
Oh, and thanks for letting me ride ur bike! wakaka!
Then it was another fren who suprised me.
Junaini suprised me wit cake and candles.
Thanks Junaini.
Just don't feel guilty for disturbing my sleep ok?
Thanks for the prezzie pal!
Then, it was another day at the hospital's lecture.
We had assessments : Bolus, Intermittent and Continous.
Haha, it was another nerve wrecking day.
Actually it was not too bad la.
They released us at 4 plus.
When i got home, i was juz chilling.
I felt indifferent la.
Juz another day, another year.
Didnt even have any plans to celebrate.
And then another fren from the past, "asked me out".
Turned him down too much that i had to say yes this time round.
He brought me to a chill-out place and i had a birthday meal. Haha, to be precise, it was fish and chips.
It was huge i tell u, but it was awesome.
Thanks U!
It was good to meet him again after so long.
However, different situation calls for different responses.
Anyway, thx for spending my bday wit me.
I feel very blessed to be around nice people, people who care.
Thanks to all.
I appreciate everything.
I really do.
Thank you.
Sometimes i can be nasty.
To those i've been mean to or cold to, i apologise.
I'm trying to change.
In my life, i've been hit many times by this particular sentence:
"Sometimes, you have to be cruel in order to be kind"
I'm sure it applies to everyone at some point of their life.
The saying has been lingering in my life all these while.
It has been wit me thru all cycles of my life.
Itz a weapon i use upon others and i have been hurt by it too, by others.
However, now it has reached saturation point.
I'm saturated.
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:17 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
And i asked for it. I didnt see all these coming. I do not have any intentions to hurt anyone. My words might be harsh. My actions might be hurtful. My moods changes drastically. I have no idea how do i back myself up. Maybe, leaving me alone would b a good idea. Let me rot in isolation. The ultimate solution might be the only one available.
Posted by Sui Teng at 7:34 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Why am i at the losing end moz of d time?
Is it coz i love to indulge in sins.
Why do i always get hurt?
Is this what u call retribution for what i did upon others.
Why am i always the ragdoll?
I always get chewed on and those bitches love to shake me. I allow myself to go thru that coz i seem to be fond of the bitch initially. Just when i start to fall for the bitch, he turned not to lick me but to bite me.
(Bitch refers to MEN! Suddenly feel like calling men bitches)
I regretted that day.
The day that i had supper and met u coincidentally.
Darn, and i thought that was a lucky day.
Then it all started.
The platonic situation sublimed into what we call a
'neither-here-nor-there' situation.
Boy likes girl.
Girl likes boy.
But boy takes it no further coz he had cruel intentions.
The intention to make the girl his rebound.
He made use of her sincerity and simply made use of her.
He said that he's falling, but he lied.
Girl was too dumb to see thru it.
Too too dumb.
Girl started falling as well, foolishly.
Girl had that glitter of hope, beneath the doubt and the insecurity she had, knowing that the boy had a recent fall out with his girlfriend-cum-future-fiancee-cum-future-wife.
Girl still too dumb.
Girl was willing to forget the past; his past.
What she didnt know was, the past is not really over.
In fact, the past was actively brewing and then one day, the past came back and took back what was meant to be hers.
Boy readily went back.
Boy told the girl he wants to go back.
He said sorry for everything.
It was his fault.
Boy left Girl dumbfounded.
Girl got sucked into an abyss of misery.
Girl felt so lost.
She cant even churn out her emotions properly.
She's a mess.
Girl started reflecting on her life.
The boys in her life.
They come n go.
It struck her that this must have been a curse,
coz she was in such a situation before.
She was in the same exact position before.
And yet, she didnt learn from mistakes.
She simply loves to engage in foolish things.
She defies and simply walks thru the flames, eventhough she knows she'll get badly burnt in d end.
For now, girl feels like she's floating aimlessly with all the other stars in the sky.
Emotionless
Is it coz i love to indulge in sins.
Why do i always get hurt?
Is this what u call retribution for what i did upon others.
Why am i always the ragdoll?
I always get chewed on and those bitches love to shake me. I allow myself to go thru that coz i seem to be fond of the bitch initially. Just when i start to fall for the bitch, he turned not to lick me but to bite me.
(Bitch refers to MEN! Suddenly feel like calling men bitches)
I regretted that day.
The day that i had supper and met u coincidentally.
Darn, and i thought that was a lucky day.
Then it all started.
The platonic situation sublimed into what we call a
'neither-here-nor-there' situation.
Boy likes girl.
Girl likes boy.
But boy takes it no further coz he had cruel intentions.
The intention to make the girl his rebound.
He made use of her sincerity and simply made use of her.
He said that he's falling, but he lied.
Girl was too dumb to see thru it.
Too too dumb.
Girl started falling as well, foolishly.
Girl had that glitter of hope, beneath the doubt and the insecurity she had, knowing that the boy had a recent fall out with his girlfriend-cum-future-fiancee-cum-future-wife.
Girl still too dumb.
Girl was willing to forget the past; his past.
What she didnt know was, the past is not really over.
In fact, the past was actively brewing and then one day, the past came back and took back what was meant to be hers.
Boy readily went back.
Boy told the girl he wants to go back.
He said sorry for everything.
It was his fault.
Boy left Girl dumbfounded.
Girl got sucked into an abyss of misery.
Girl felt so lost.
She cant even churn out her emotions properly.
She's a mess.
Girl started reflecting on her life.
The boys in her life.
They come n go.
It struck her that this must have been a curse,
coz she was in such a situation before.
She was in the same exact position before.
And yet, she didnt learn from mistakes.
She simply loves to engage in foolish things.
She defies and simply walks thru the flames, eventhough she knows she'll get badly burnt in d end.
For now, girl feels like she's floating aimlessly with all the other stars in the sky.
Emotionless
Posted by Sui Teng at 7:06 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
This is how it is in the auditorium.Itz lectures lectures lectures.
Sometimes(Ok, moz of the time) i fall asleep coz i really cant help it !! my gosh !! those are the miserable moments!! Half awake and half asleep. haha.
Sok Thian, Faridah, Min n me
Ain, Sok Thian, Faridah and min
Posted by Sui Teng at 6:47 PM
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Today is Graduation Day !
As usual i live up to my title of "Little Miss Late" . . hehe. .
It was great to see everybody !
Had a hectic n rushy morning but d day went well.
If only everyone didnt have to go back to work after the ceremony.
Syimah and Sri came to join me in d auditorium during their break time
Luckily they came eventhough i forgot to calll em !!
Phew, itz all over man.
For now.
*grin*
Me and Hasyimah
Me and Sri
Shafa, Lin n me.
Min, Shafa, Lin, Aini, me and Mr Alan Lim
Misfits
Shafa, Lin, me, Min, Aini, Farz, Dewi
Us us us !
Shafa and me
As usual i live up to my title of "Little Miss Late" . . hehe. .
It was great to see everybody !
Had a hectic n rushy morning but d day went well.
If only everyone didnt have to go back to work after the ceremony.
Syimah and Sri came to join me in d auditorium during their break time
Luckily they came eventhough i forgot to calll em !!
Phew, itz all over man.
For now.
*grin*
Me and Hasyimah
Me and Sri
Shafa, Lin n me.
Somehow today my body is not positioning well. haha.
Min, Shafa, Lin, Aini, me and Mr Alan Lim
Misfits
Shafa, Lin, me, Min, Aini, Farz, Dewi
Us us us !
Shafa and me
Posted by Sui Teng at 11:23 PM
Monday, July 2, 2007
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From Left to Right : Muhaymin, Me, Faridah The picture above was taken while we were at the last 6 weeks of attachment !!!! I felt like it was just yesterday but it was like 2 months agooo !!!! and now things have changed !!! look at the pictures below !!! Different uniform!!! arrgghh !!!! hahahahahaha...
Muhaymin, Faridah, Ain and me
Today is the first day of work at CGH !!!
We start of by having lectures.
Itz soooo freaking boringgggggg !!! !
Slept on occasions.. Cant help it !!!
It was a long day: 8.30am-6pm. .